and so it begins...
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This is the start of my online journal that i'm making to go along with my website. I hope i update this on a regular basis... i think i will for a while at least.
Well, tonight my boyfriend Matt is commin to get me and take me to his place. I kinda want him to stay here tonight so i can spend some time with my dad and my little brother.
I met Matt a few months ago online but never planned to fall in love with him. We've been dating since Christmas eve. They way I feel about him is so weird. It's not really what I thought being in love would feel like. But it's the best thing to ever happen to me. When i'm with him it's not what it was like when i had crushes on boys. I'm not usually all googly and obsesive. Sometimes i get carried away because he's sooooo cute and so wonderful, but for the most part I just feel like everythings normal... kinda like he's just an extention of myself.
It's reminds me of my relationship with my dad... minus the sexual side of it, I DEFINATLY do not want to EVER see my dad naked *shudder*. But like right now i'm living with my just my dad. And usually it's just like a normal thing cause, duh, it's my dad i'm wicked used to him. But every once in a while i remember how much i love him and i get the 'love' feeling in my chest, u know what i mean? and i get that around matt sometimes but most of the time it's like it's a normal thing. which it kinda is by now. i spend so much time at his house in mass... it's a two hour drive from here in maine. massachussetes is so much better than maine though. i can't wait to go back.
I suppose i should also talk about my feelings when it comes to the news about ICP. Personally, I think it's awesome. I think it's exactly what needs to happen. The Carnival has come and all the Joker Cards have fallen we gotta let it just chill for a while. It's a powerful thing, and i know that probly sounds stupid to some people but to have touched so many peoples lives and to have brought so many people together and changed so many lives IS truly powerful. so FUCK YOU if you think imma sheep or a dumbass or whatever. cause i aint. i don't listen to or agree with everything joe and joey say and i don't necessarilly believe a carnival is gonna come along when i die. i look at it more as a metaphor and a story.
...anyway, that's basically all i got to say for right now. peace out.
and don't forget to FUCK OFF
Posted by juggalo-love
at 3:07 PM EST
Updated: Friday, 21/01/2005 3:21 PM EST